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the eric update – day 53: supersized paci. yet another spit bath. first laundry load!

day 53: supersized paci

tonight, eric was upgraded to a really, really big paci, which is yet another sign that he’s getting to be a Big Boy. the pacifier is a special preemie, orthodontically-correct paci which the nurses claimed would be difficult to find outside the nicu. it doesn’t seem too difficult if you know where to look, but maybe there’s a difference that makes a difference that i’m not seeing. i’m sure someone can help me clear up the confusion. in any case, the supersized paci is a big step on the way to getting prepared for breastfeeding. it’s neat to see him start to suck on everything in sight when it gets close to feeding time, even though his feedings are coming through the feeding tube.

day 53: bearer of the ring

maybe someday, i’ll stop documenting every bath that he gets, but today was not that day. kris looked at me with a raised eyebrow when i told her that i was going to photograph yet another spit bath, but i just couldn’t quite bring myself to not take the pictures. hopefully you’ll still enjoy the fruits of my obsessiveness.

day 53: yet another spit bath. I.

no, this isn’t a mere product placement for johnson & johnson shampoo; it’s time for another “spit” bath! eric can’t have a full tub bath because his IV is in his arm, which makes it more difficult to keep water from infiltrating the line.

day 53: yet another spit bath. II.

first, the eyes must be scrubbed.

day 53: yet another spit bath. III.

and then the inside of the ear.

day 53: yet another spit bath. IV.

don’t forget the back of the ears. you don’t want any yeasty growths accumulating behind the ears.

day 53: yet another spit bath. V.

scrub his head!

day 53: yet another spit bath. VI.

rinse his head!

day 53: yet another spit bath. VII.

aahhhh. a brief respite from the rigors of the spit bath.

day 53: yet another spit bath. VIII.

a bath can be pretty tiring and one must yawn at least once during the process.

day 53: yet another spit bath. IX.

scrubbing bubbles.

day 53: yet another spit bath. X.

during the bath, eric decides that maybe the new, supersized paci would be a good way to help make the best of the situation.

day 53: yet another spit bath. XI.

it’s always nice to end a bath with a little fingergrab.

day 53: tucked in for the night.

tucked in for the night. well, not really, because the nurses will still be doing their nursing duties every couple of hours, but we like to imagine that he’s really settled in for a long night of restful sleep.

i think the muscle shirt with cars suits him well.

day 53: decreased nasal cannula flow

in one of the most subtle changes of late, eric’s nasal cannula air flow was decreased from 2 liters to 1.5 liters, which is a huge step forward in the process of getting weaned from the respiratory aid. the nurses thought he’d need to have his supplemental oxygen turned up to help offset the decreased airflow, but he didn’t, which they said was quite impressive.

the floating ball indicates the flow rate. when it gets to zero, he’ll be able to get rid of the nasal cannula altogether and be free of tubes up his nose!

day 53: his first load of laundry!

they also told us that, as soon as he gets the IV taken off of his hand, we can start bringing in his own personal clothes! the clothes he’s wearing now are special tops with velcro that make it really easy to get on and off in the event of an emergency, but soon he’ll be able to wear regular street cloths.

so, late in the night we did his very first load of laundry.

the eric update – day 50: eric’s first tub bath! and even more nasal cannula.

day 50: eric's first tub bath. I.

the big news today was that eric got to have his first tub bath after weeks of “spit baths” with a washcloth. micropreemies are often none to impressed with bathing, as it just makes them cold, so it’s interesting to see his reponse. at first he seems like he might get quite unhappy with with the whole bathing thing, but he eventually settled in an waited patiently for it to be over. all the bathing was quite tiring, so after playing with a new toy that kris bought, he looked around for a bit and quickly fell fast asleep.

day 50: eric's first tub bath. II.

yes, it really does take that many people to bath a micropreemie, what with all the sensors and IV lines

day 50: eric's first tub bath. III.

at first, eric’s not too impressed with the whole bath experience.

day 50: eric's first tub bath. IV.

mama gets ready to apply some soap. he’s settled down at the point, resigned to fact that he’s not getting out of the bath anytime soon.

day 50: eric's first tub bath. V.

“you know, it’s fun and all to have so many women being so attentive, but could you pick up the pace a bit, as i’m getting pretty cold.”

day 50: eric's first tub bath. VI.

he’s getting dried off and decides that he’d like to hold the “graspy” toy that mama bought for him just a few hours earlier.

day 50: eric's first tub bath. VII.

getting a bath can be a very tiring event, so he has to try very, very hard to keep his eyes open.

day 50: eric's first tub bath. VIII.

yaaaawwwwwwwnnnnn. sleepy.

day 50: eric's first tub bath. IX.

or maybe not so sleepy. he puts off sleep for a few more moments and looks right at me.

day 50: eric's first tub bath. X.

o.k. yeah. i guess he really was sleepy afterall.

he’s up to 8 hours of nasal cannula, followed by 2 hours of cpap and handling it wonderfully, with very few alarms. i’d expect them to test out 24 hours of the nasal cannula very soon.

he’s still having trouble digesting the breastmilk as quickly as they’d like and he’ll typically have an alarm or two after feeding. the alarms after feeding are from the weight of the food in his stomach pressing on his vagus nerve, which helps to maintain his heartrate. the fact that his food isn’t moving along as fast as they’d like is aggravating the situation. at this point, there’s not much they can do, except watch him closely and obey the signs that he’s sending to take it slow with the feedings.

the eric update – day 48: gifts! last transfusion? no alarms (except pops induced)!

day 48: loose cannula

there’s no doubt about it. we’re back to the ho-hum days that are mostly filled with kangaroo care.

eric is being transitioned from the cpap to the nasal cannula much more quickly than previous attempts. today, they altered his schedule to alternate between 4 hours of cpap and 4 hours of the cannula. amazingly, he only had 2 brady’s (bradycardia, or slowing of his heart rate ), the entire day and both were while he was on my chest, which, of course led to endless jokes from kris and nurse jan. both brady’s were due to his head slowly getting into a position that made it difficult for eric to breath. of course, whenever eric’s on my chest he seems to enjoy putting his head in the position that will lead to a brady. i imagine that he thinks it’s a fun game to have me move his head in the correct position, only to move it slowly and imperceptibly back to the wrong one. over and over we play the game and sometimes he wins and has a brady.

eric also likes to tug on his nasal cannula, pulling the prongs out of his nose. if he weren’t doing so well breathing on his own, we’d know when the prongs were out of his nose, as his blood oxygen levels would start to decrease. but since he is breathing so well, we don’t see the “desat” and only later discover that his prongs have been out for as long as 10 or 15 minutes at a time, which is yet another sign that he’s getting stronger.

day 48: eric meets babo the ugly doll

some longtime friends, matt and erin, who we haven’t seen in awhile came into town this weekend bearing gifts! eric was happy to receive his new ugly doll, even if the nurses were all a little perplexed as to what an ugly doll was and why on earth anyone would want to buy one. but we don’t care what they think, since eric and the ugly doll got along quite famously and found themselves in long, heated discussion about which of them was taller.

day 48: eric and babo discuss who's longer

clearly, the ugly doll has no grounds for his assertion that he is, in fact taller than eric.

day 48: eric's new handcrafted knit cap

in addition to giving him the ugly doll, they also gave him a cap that erin knitted with her very own hands! the nurses were all very impressed that the cap was knit by a nicu rookie, since it can be tough to make the cap snug, but not too snug, and it should also be quite stretchy in all directions to accomodate the various forms that his very malleable head might take on from day to day. there’s a bit bucket of “discards” in the waiting room outside the nicu that have been knitted by volunteers but that haven’t passed the quality control inspection from the nicu staff, but eric’s cap won’t be in it, because it’s about as perfect as you could want it to be. thanks!

day 48: diaper change from pops. I.

there’s nothing special about the fact that i’m changing eric’s diaper, but i couldn’t remember ever providing photographic evidence to dispute any lingering suspicions that i might be trying to shirk diaper changing duties.

day 48: diaper change from pops. II.

it’s a bit more tricky to change his diaper these days, since it is seemingly impossible to not get the velcro on the diaper stuck on the shirt before you get all the cords and lines out of the way.

day 48: diaper change from pops. III.

as i change his diaper, it strikes me that as odd to think that some day we’ll actually change his diaper and not have to worry about pulling out IV or feeding lines or detaching sensors.

day 48: diaper change from pops. IV.

it occured to me that i’ve only casually mentioned his intravenous feeding and having discussed at greater length a very important element of how well eric is doing.

day 48: total parenteral nutrition.

so it’s time for a short course in parenteral nutrition, where parenteral refers to food that enters the body through a blood vessel. in what is known as total parenteral nutrition, all of the essentials ( carbohydrates, protein, fat, vitamins and minerals ) are delivered directly through an IV line in one of eric’s veins.

day 48: lipids

despite all the active research that has gone into parenteral nutrition and fact that it’s probably one of the greatest reasons that eric has been able to keep growing despite suffering from pneumonia, i can’t help but feel that the bag of fluids look suspiciously like gatorade and the the syringe surely must be filled with lard and not some state of the art blend of short chain lipids as they claim.

day 48: another feeding

day 48: eric's 16th transfusion

eric received three more transfusions today which brings him to a grand total of 17 thus far. he needed the transfusions because he still has a hard time making new blood as quickly as he breaks it down and they’re talking a lot of samples out to keep close track his immune blood counts while he has pneumonia. we were told today by nurse jan that, if things went as they expected, today’s transfusions would be the last he’s likely to receive during his stay in the nicu!

day 48: checking his lungs

eric’s lungs are sounding so good that it’s not really clear whether they’d still would say that he has pneumonia. in other words, he might just be fully recovered!

day 48: pooh borrows the cap

it’s interesting to note that while we were free to explore giving “directed donations” ( where we give the blood that eric would receive ), we didn’t because it apparently takes so long to process and screen the donations that they often get the donations back after they are no longer needed. also, the screening criteria for neonatal donations is so rigorous ( i.e. can’t have any antibodies for many common ailments ) that it’s often difficult for the parents to pass the screening test. so while the staff would never prevent us from giving blood, they’ve always strongly hinted that it’s easier, safer and faster to just get transfusion from their trusted pool of special neonatal donors.

day 48: ending the day with a little 'roo

because they have to monitor his blood pressure and other vitals closely during the transfusion, there’s no kangaroo care to be had during the process. of course, kris wasn’t going to let let three transfusions get in the way of lots of kangaroo care, so she simply had to time the sessions differently than normal. speaking of timing, while you might think that we can just waltz into the nicu and do the ‘roo, in addition to having to work around the transfusions, we also have to be aware of the nurses rounds which occur every two hours. and it’s also nice to get the kangaroo care in while he’s on the nasal cannula as the cpap mask can have a hard maintaining a good fit while he’s doing the ‘roo. so there’s quite a few “knowns” that we have to deal with in addition to the usual array of “unknowns”, such as getting kicked out abruptly in the evening, just after kris had settled in with eric, to prepare for two new admits.

the eric update – day 45: off the vent! kangaroo care! first shirt! doubled weight!

day 45: the transfer

wowza. so many good things happened today that it’s going to be hard to summarize them into an easy to digest nugget. after eleven long days on the ventilator we were quite surprised ( as were many of the nurses ) that the neonatologists decided that eric was ready to be free of the vent. apparently his right lung looked much better than anticipated after this morning’s x-ray and the doctor’s decided that he was recovered enough from pneumonia to give the cpap a try. woohoo! and you know what that means – we can hold him again! here, nurse peggy is handing him off to kris for a little kangaroo care.

day 45: at long last!  a little 'roo time with mama.

despite getting the great news that he was back on cpap and therefore able to be held, everyone thought that he would only be able to stand small amounts of kangaroo care. nurse peggy watched his stats carefully after the transfer for 5 minutes. then 10. then 15. and 20. until she finally decided that eric was doing better off the vent than on. he did spectacularly for an hour, with not a single alarm, and he was only put back in the radiant warming bed when kris decided that she had to go pump breastmilk. it was quite and accomplishment as he’s still has pneumonia. his breathing was as stable as you could ever want it, which is impressive because babies can sometimes get lazy after being on vent, as the machine does much of the work for them.

day 45: being held by pops.

after an hour of kangaroo care from mama i was able to hold him “regular style” ( i had no idea that he’d go off the vent today so i didn’t wear clothing appropriate for kangaroo care ) for a half an hour. fun! (

day 45: his first shirt. I.

as if all the great news about him getting off the vent and getting kangaroo care wasn’t enough to absorb for one day, nurse peggy announced that he’d be getting his first shirt!

day 45: his first shirt. II.

it’s a sign that his caregivers think that he’s getting more stable than ever, since it means that they aren’t so preoccupied with having to see how mottled or flushed his skin is at any particular moment. i picked a very stylish blue pinstriped top.

day 45:  doubled his birthweight!

and last, but certainly not least, eric hit a big milestone today by officially doubling his birthweight. he weighed in at 1335 grams or 2 pounds 15.1 ounces!

it’s hard to believe that he only needs to gain about an ounce to hit 3 pounds. it seems like just yesterday that we were celebrating the 2 pound milestone. gaining so much weight while fighting pneumonia is an impressive feat.

they grow up so fast!

wow! wow! wow! after eleven days of hardship, it’s really exciting to have to much good news to report.

day 45: measuring his head.

random aside – i realized tonight that i hadn’t got a shot of a ritual that occurs every 3 days – the measuring of eric’s head. since the last measurement, his head grew a half a centimeter and is now 27 centimeters in circumference.

the eric update – day 43: readin’, feedin’ and nicu noise.

day 43: creased palm

another day of quiet recovery, which is a good thing these days. slightly frustratingly, we still haven’t heard the results from the echocardiogram which will tell us if his patent ductus artierosis has closed, but his blood gasses are so good that i think everyone is assuming that it’s closed. also, they are apparently having trouble determining what the bug was that showed up in one of his blood samples and haven’t been able to find any more of it, so it’s likely that we’ll never know for now if it was contamination or is simply lurking in the background at undetectable levels while he’s on the antiobiotic regime. or maybe it’s gone for good.

day 43: feeding again!

they started eric’s breastmilk feedings again, which means that they are getting more confident that he’s recovering from his recent “troubles”.

technically, they aren’t really feedings as they are giving him such a small amount – only 1 cc every 3 hours, but it’s a start. rather than sending the food directly to his intestines via an “o.j.” ( oral to jejunum ) tube, they’ve decided to see if he’s can tolerate sending the milk directly to his stomach via his “o.g.” ( oral to gut ) tube. this is another small sign that they believe he’s getting stronger, despite his pneumonia.

day 43: ear clasp

the nicu is packed these days and when it gets packed it gets noisy. it’s a small nicu with only 15 beds, but it’s a small space and can get quite crowded when all the beds are filled, if all the babies have visitors. there’s and ebb and flow to visitors and during peak hours it the constant din of conversation and bells ringing can make it sound like a surreal cocktail party.

if you’re paying attention when it’s noisy, you’ll notice eric sending little signs that things are getting too loud, such as grasping his ear tightly in an attempt to block out the sound. subtle signal, no?

day 43: jonathan livingston seagull. I.

kris finished reading eric jonathan livingston seagull. he liked it a lot.

“poor fletch. don’t believe what your eyes are telling you. all they show is limitation. look with your understanding, find out what you already know, and you’ll see the way to fly.”

day 43: jonathan livingston seagull. II.

the eric update – day 42: two birthdays!

day 42: another bath

it’s eric’s and and kris’ birthday today! we all know eric turned 6 weeks old today, but i’ll leave it up to kris to decide whether or not to reveal her age. grandma and grandpa snowdeal came into town just to take us out to lunch; and we celebrated a quiet birthday in the evening with some of her family. it’s hard to put much mental energy into really celebrating outside the nicu, but that didn’t stop me from eating more than my fair shair of cake.

the nurses all knew it was kris’ birthday and decided to give her an extra special present by letting her wash him. as you can imagine, it’s a little difficult to give him a good scrubbing while trying to not extubate him, but kris did a great job.

day 42: pudge

eric is continuing to really pack on the weight. he weighed in at 1240 grams or just under 2 pounds 12 ounces. he looks a little puffy from water retension related to the intravenous drip, but i think a lot of his recent gains are real thing. amazingly, he just needs to gain 2 more ounces to have doubled his birth weight! over the past few days, nurses that haven’t seen him for a few days have been commenting how much different he’s been looking as he fills out and today was the first day that i really could see what they were talking about. ( as i’m writing this, a nurse walks by and exclaims, “ohmygosh! he’s big! oh my!” i swear that she doesn’t know what i’m writing at the same moment ).

day 42: head of hair

during his bath, kris cleaned his hair and we both noticed that it was long enough to get “mussed” up and it stayed that way, as if it might be wavy. so august 15, 2004 was the first day and probably not the last day, if he’s anything like his pops, that eric’s hair was messy.

day 42: being held my mama

kris was also able to sneak in another brief bit of holding by picking him up while the nurse changed his bedding around. after a week of no holding or kangaroo care, these brief interactions which were made possible by an incredibly thoughtful nurse, made kris’ birthday quite special. all the nurses are great, but some of them are much more attentive and thoughtful and have not forgotten that any contact, however brief, is magical.

day 42: post bath nap

day 42: hand on chest

random observation, his fingers are getting bigger.

the eric update – day 41: closed pda? a bigger diaper and growth curves.

day 41: the fuzz keeps growing

eric received his round of indomethacin to treat the recurrence of patent ductus arteriosis, but we won’t have any decisive answers as to whether or not the hole in his heart has closed until monday; there’s only a small number of people who are skilled in doing the diagnostic echocardiogram on micropreemies and, apparently, they don’t work on weekends. it’s actually a good sign that the nicu staff don’t feel the need to call the technicians in for an emergency procedure, since it means that they think that the hole has closed. eric’s blood gasses have improved and his need for supplemental oxygen has decreased to 22-24%, which is almost the same as room air. also, none of the nurses can hear the characteristic “murmur” that they’d expect to hear with pda, so everyone is fairly confident that the hole has closed quickly in response to the medicine. good news!

as for the sepsis, we won’t know anything definitive for quite some time. we’ll probably know tomorrow exactly which bug is causing the problems, but that knowledge won’t change his treatment protocol. as i stated yesterday, eric will be on antibiotics for a full 15 days in an attempt to beat the bug into submission. however, we learned today that it’s likely that they won’t get rid of it completely and they will probably change tactics after 15 days and move towards a protocol that involves giving him short, sharp bursts of antibiotics. it’s a delicate balance, as giving eric a continuous feed of antibiotics obliterates the good bugs along with the bad; and dampening his natural immune capability increases the chance of eric getting a systemic yeast infection, which is really, really difficult to get rid of and can cause all matter of ugly and unspeakable problems. so for now, all we can go is hope that he continues to respond as well as he has to the current protocol. the good news is that his overall immune system profile is excellent, so we can only hope that it stays that way.

day 41: mama takes over the weigh-in. I.

we haven’t been able to hold eric as he’s been back on the vent while he’s fighting pneumonia, but the nurses cleverly found a way to let kris sneak in a little touch time by letting her put him on the scales for his weigh-in. eric’s nicu nurses are so incredibly thoughtful and considerate that it really is impossible to imagine how to properly convey the gratitude we felt at the kind gesture.

also, we talked with his caregivers for quite some time about how long he’d be on the vent and the possibility that he’d suffer from the negative side effects that are known to accompany the vent, including respiratory distress syndrome. luckily, eric’s vent settings are at the lowest that they can be and, while nobody can predict the future, they don’t think he’ll suffer any adverse consequences from being on the vent.

day 41: mama takes over the weigh-in. II.

eric tipped the scales at 1170 grams which is just over 2 pounds 9 ounces. that’s right he gained just over 3 ounces, despite battling pneumonia and sepsis.

day 41: mama takes over the weigh-in. III.

they say that every baby excels in one area of development and eric seems to be doing great with gaining weight. some of the gain can be attributed to water retension, but i think much of it is real. speaking of weight gain, eric also graduated into a new, bigger diaper! his previous diaper was only appropriate for babies at or under 1200 grams, so he’s crossed quite a milestone.

day 41: a new, bigger diaper!

the new diaper looks amusingly large on him, but with any luck he’ll quickly grow into it.

day 41: growth curves

while we’re on the subject of gaining weight, it’s interesting to note that eric is following the “normal” gestational growth curve as if he were in the 10th percentile. in other words, if he were born today, his weight would be in the 10th percentile of all babies born. not bad for a guy who’s been out of womb for nearly 6 weeks.